A life with medicine is a negative, pessimistic thing but sometime quite necessary for people who can't accept people. When problems happen and physical or mental conditions are pushed to the breaking point, doctors prescribe pills for people under those circumstances. Medication which often represents itself as working through meditation treats many thousands of different illnesses and through its biological or chemical origination it aims to settle, heal, pacify or cure and help physical ailments or mental thinking and diseases.

Doctors diagnose and prescribe medication through scripts for people who can't help themselves or accept life the way it is not rely on someone with better knowledge of health systems to enable them to get back on track or to help them understand themselves by leading them intelligently to more stable or positive life directions. As my ailment is not a physical problem but a mental one, I can only speak for myself but as I have good physical health I must relate to my mental problem in order to help understand people with physical problems. A life with medicine is something of depressive disease for me whose diagnoses of schizophrenia is a mental ailment that have been treated with medicine for over twenty five years and if it gets to thirty I will be wondering what God has been doing to me for me to suffer so long and having to bow down to the medical system instead of worshipping God.

As I worship God I wonder why the medical system always wins. If God ins part of the medical system why don't they preach that in Church and if God is head of the church why does the medical system win. This I can't understand or explain but must accept because of my condition. But a life on full time medication is a dead end street unless it heals the person, but when approaching thirty years I wonder what God is doing.